so. i'm happy.

thank goodness!
i'm not very fun to deal with when i'm all depressed n stuff. so yes! and i think my baby is happy too! he's actually sleeping now! although not until very very very late, well, early...but he's sleeping none-the-less. which is an awesome thing! and he's doing well, or at least it sounds like it to me. :] and! he smiles. although i haven't seen him in forever, i can hear it on the phone. you know how someone's tone changes when you smile or frown or something? maybe it's just me cause i'm in chorus (aa, ee, ah, oo, uu). lol but yeah. hopefully he can smile all the time. :]

i love you so much darling.
seriously i do. and. i'm kinda proud of myself actually. :] i don't even think of the other him now. like, ever. sure, sometimes i worry if i know that he's with some bad-influencing friends that go steal useless stuff from k-mart or wal-mart, but that's only the friend in me. seriously. no deep meaning of "love" in there at all. nada. :] so yep. :] i only love you. forever and ever and ever and ever! muah!

so. omg! i totally woke up my baby today when he was sleeping. D: he told me to call him or else he would never wake up...so i called him, and when he picked up (it took some time), but he sounded sooo tired!! omg! i was like having a serious spazz attack cause he sounded so. fuckin. cute! eeek!! omg! lol i'm lookin forward to seeing you tired in person, baby. ;D lol aww. but omg! lol it was just soo cute! and, my heart is still racing as i think about it. lol i know, i know, how childish...but. i can't help it. i get so happy whenever i think about him. i think i'm obsessed. D: lol aw. whatever. i don't care. lol it's all for love, anyways!! :] lol

oh! so. lemme tell you about my school life, okay? :]
so. this is the last official week of school (next week is only 3 days, and it's for like, 41/2 hours each day). i'm so fuckin excited!! lol you have noo idea! like. i got to finish my la eoct today (cause the computer booted me off twice yesterday), and i've already taken the math eoct, and then i took my dance practicum today, and also started my science eoct. so yes! i just have to finish my science one tomorrow, take my first final on friday, then it's the weekend! then! the very last days of my freshman year!!! :] monday: 4th period (guided study)/2rd period (chorus); tuesday: 5th period (math)/3rd period (la); wednesday: 6th period (dance)/7th period (science). and then it's nothing!!! summer time woopwoop!!! :] yep. so hmmmm.... yep. i. am. currently. distracted. lol

wow. that was freaky. don't ask what. lol
anyways. i think that this journal was just my ranting. lol
because this is the longest journal i've ever written. lol yep.
anyways.
much love ya'll.
but all my love to my D!! :]
i love you baby.

autumn